Faithful till the end...

I was blessed with the privilege not to work my first year of college. Which was great because I was able to "get my feet wet" and get use to being a way from home for the first time. This summer mom and daddy asked me to look for a job, nothing that would take too much time away from school, but that would give me spending money. I was excited, because mom and daddy had given me the ability not to work last year and I am thankful, but at the same time, I hate asking for money and I really don't mind working. So I began to pray that God would open doors for something on campus that way I could go home on breaks and such. After looking pretty much everywhere that I could think of on campus and coming up short, I was pretty frustrated! About 3 weeks ago a lady who has 2 little girls called me and asked if I would be interested in keeping the girls on Tuesday's and Thursday's for 2-4 hours. It has turned out to be a blessing for sure! They are a young couple who lead the college ministry at the church they attend. And their little girls are just too cute!



But while hanging out with the girls, I can't help but think about the Johnson kids back home. I have to admit that 2 little girls are a little easier then 5 boys, 1 girl and a dog though! But how I miss the way Caroline thought she was the boss, and I could listen to that girl read for hours!! How Caleb always wanted to show me his latest "project" and the way Josiah loved to sit on my lap. Stephen hated to take pictures with me, but always wanted me to read him a book. Every time Moses says my name, my heart just melts and while I've missed out on Noah growing up (I can't believe he will be a year in December) he is so cute!

I am so thankful that people trust me with their little ones! I love children and since it isn't yet time for me to have my own, I'm blessed to get to watch these little ones grow up!

Life...

I don't know about you, but I tend to take life for granted, from the "little" things like being able to take a shower everyday to the "big" things like having parents who love me and do whatever they can to make my life wonderful (which they do by the way!). The Lord has used many people and events in my life to show me how much I take things for granted. He has shown me how quickly someone can be taken away, He blessed me with a liver disease that has brought me closer to Him and has been a witness to my family, He used a dear sister (Sarah) to help me realize how each day is precious and a gift from Him.
I think about how often I grumble because "... it's too hot", "... i miss mom, daddy and josh." and so on, and yet I just lost an aunt who battled cancer for 4 1/2 years and still woke up everyday wondering what she could do for someone else.
What a blessed life I live!! What an amazing Savior I have!!

Father- I praise You, for You alone give me life and breath. You alone protect and provide for me. Lord, help me to trust You with the smallest and the biggest of issues in my daily life. Help me to look to You The Author and Prefecture of my faith. I praise You for each triumph and each trial for I know it is only You growing, and molding me to be more like You. I love You with all I am, and hope to be! In Jesus Name, Amen

Who Am I?

I don’t have a name; I’m not considered a person.

Others decide what is best for me I can be terminated in a simple doctor’s visit.

Some of the reasons I cease to exist are; fear of a bad reputation, getting in the way of a career, not being affordable, a girl and a boy to young and some just consider me a mistake that was never meant to happen.

On January 22, 1973 the highest court in the United States decided my fate. Since that day as of the year 2006 I am one of 36 million lives that were ended by someone else’s choice. Many continue to join my ranks.

I am an aborted baby.

My fate has been determined by men & women from every walk of life; rick and poor.

I cannot bear to tell you how my life was ended.

If faced with the decision of my fate, what would you choose?

Psalms 139: 16-17 says “Your eyes saw my substance being yet unformed, and in your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me when as yet there were none of them.”

You decide, Am I somebody or not?

What a Savior!

As I think of the past 21 years of my life… or what I remember of it… I can’t help but think… what an awesome Creator, Protector, Provider & Savior that I have.

He protected me as Satan whispered lies to my mom about aborting me.

He protected me as I came into this world @ 27 weeks… (2 ½ months early)

He protected mom & I through very hard & uncertain days…

He provided us with food & shelter

He later provided a man to love us both… a man who treats me like I am his daughter.

He saw me through eye surgery @ 3.

He saw me through another scary time with my eyes in second grade

He became my personal Savior later that year.

He continues to show me how much I need Him… how desperately wicked my heart was before He lived there.

He provided me with great friends in middle school (Krysta, JoHelen, Jenna, Chase, Stephanie & others)

He protected me from a lot of “worldly” things through middle school & into high school.

He provided an amazing coach & math teacher… who I am convinced I wouldn’t have made it out of algebra with out… (thanks “turtle” no one else would have had as much patience with Leslie & I.)

He protected me through a relationship that in no way honored Him & in that showed me that I am never out of His reach… even when I didn’t care about my relationship with Him at the time.

He was my Peace, Protector, Provider, & Strength when I found out I was sick

He allowed me to finish high school & I praise Him alone for that accomplishment b/c w/o Him I would have never made it.

He provided a way to take a year off for treatment… w/o loosing my TOPS.

In the time off I got to substitute which allowed me to get a feel for the classroom & see if teaching is really what I want to do

He blessed me with a great job that worked around my schedule & that allowed me to save money for school.

He is now providing a way for me to do what I have wanted for so long… go to Tech & pursue my career goals.